Muscle and mind tired

So today all I did was ballistic stretches to lessen the tension off my left shoulder, even why I stretch its painful. Tomorrow is my gym session with trainer again, probably ill practice my posture tonight.

So finally I talk to her again well mainly trying to find out the personality testing book, which really got me thinking today, I wonder what kind of person I am, the conversation turned out to become how she vent out her frustration at me, and how I skipped our valentines day dinner while I work that night, why I didn't trust her and wait for her till end of march. I did however vent out some of my frustration at her, I don't want to be feel like I was just being played, I have nightmares about that and I woke up crying last night at 4:30 despite it being over, I still dream of her every now and then after the fact. I must not talk to her, or see her, I feel like I would loose myself, loose my control so that I will hold her in my arm and plant my lip on hers, to taste the sweetness, just as we stand there withstand the wind of autumn, the blizzard of winter, the rain of spring, with her, all I feel is the summer breeze.

Oh my goodness, not seeing her, then the lasting impression she'll have of me is the Jerk who gave her the worst valentines day gift ever, then end it via a text message.

Oh, happy dagger, talk to my heart, let no one wept for me as I drown myself in eternal darkness. For that, I'm a fool, a fool for her.

New day as a fitness beginner

So I have start this training and going to the gym as part of my weekly routine , even now I ate some fatty food, I will actually feel guilty. I'm tired but I'm eager to get to the gym. I actually can't wait to get started from my session with trainer Steve, we are suppose to monitor my dietary intake, but somehow I think it's hopeless, got to finish my questionnaire first!

So it's been a week I haven't talk to her, I hope this kinda thing will help her concentrate on the exam, even though I hate it a lot, but I have to do it, for her benefit. by the sign of her not replying, it would seem she doesn't want anything to do with me anymore. Probably according to her script i should disappear like that.她乃有一份未完結的愛, 為什麼要選我?為什麼? I can only describe my feeling by 好戲之人by 李克勤, 狠狠高聲說不喜歡你，走開好嗎不要再望，否則只可擁吻你.

又始至終我對她的愛都係一樣，只是恨我們有緣冇份，我不甘心，但總需在這短短時間畫上一個句號.